Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Christina Aguilera

Yesterday was the longest, most boring day of my life. I was offically on the clock at work for 14 hours. I spent the first half at a Diversity & Inclusion workshop. It was semi-educational, mostly a bunch of no-brainer type things. It gave me plenty of thinkin' time. I thought about the things going on right now and I came to a conclusion. I want to date a white girl. A true white girl. An anglo. Not one that hangs around a bunch of black people and acts ghetto. Not one with a whole bunch of attitude. I don't even want her to have soul or any sort of rhythm about her. Just white as white can be. I don't want her to like rap music, I don't want her to wanna go to black clubs, I don't want her to use a bunch of slang. None of it. I want something completely different. If I ever happen to run across a black girl with these qualities, I'm snatchin her up for sure. But I do want to date a white girl, just once. I almost got one's number a few weeks ago. Lady Gaga was playing at the club and I sang along to one of the lines and this blond chick threw her arms around my neck and was like "you know Lady Gaga, you steal my heeeaarrttt!!" She was cute, but I decided she was too drunk to really converse with. I think I've just been overwhelmed by ghetto chicks lately. I really do need to move away from Indianapolis, to a bigger city where there's more people to choose from. Everybody is so hood around here, it seems. Maybe I'm not hanging around the right people or going to the right places, but I'm growing discouraged. I don't want a cursin, ghetto broad that's ready to fight at a moment's notice. That seems to be what Indianapolis is full of. Can't I just get a nice young lady that's single and knows how to act like she's got some sense? Where are the women whose cell phone isn't on disconnect every other month?? Can I meet a young lady who doesn't always have her sister's kids, or her neighbor's kids, or just some random kids that don't belong to her with her?? I want a young lady that doesn't smoke. Can I call a chick just once and ask her to go out and just get a simple yes without her having to "get a ride back from my cuzin house, then run to the beauty supply, see what time I'm supposed to braid RoRo's hair, and wait for my sister to come pick up my nephew." It'll be 11:30 at night before all that gets completed! I get so sick of that. Just tell me no. Direct me to another date on the calendar that you might have free, or at least less random chores and errands to do for other people. What makes me even more sick is dealing with females that keep pushing things back because of disorganization and chaos that they have in their life. Don't make plans with me for 5, then call me at 4:50 and say you need an hour. It's so unattractive, on top of rude and disrespectful. More often than not, these are the types of women I run across. No act-right at all. A woman that has her shit together and seems like she's got a clue about how to treat a person and how to act is a real prize around here. I'm sure they do exist and I just haven't ran across them yet. I already know what half the deal is too...the women that have it together or are working very hard in an attempt to have it all the way together, I'm friends with them. Or like my one Friend, they're already involved in something else. *sigh*

Speaking of Friend, we discussed things a little more today. Not really in-depth, but we shared feelings. She admitted that she fell hard for me back when we first met, in October. She said that now, since she's got a man and all, she has been really just swallowing her feelings and ignoring them, minus Saturday. I asked her is it really fair to her boyfriend that she's with him, but actively trying to squash feelings for someone else? Her response was "what can I do about it?" I told her that it was for her to decide. I really think that she does want to be with him and just wishes she didn't like me. The whole time we talked today, I had that same feeling that something was going unsaid. I felt like she wanted me to dig deep and reveal some intense feelings or something, but she wanted to give up very little. She wants to fight it bad. I did go ahead and tell her I missed her and asked when I was going to see her again and she said "the weekend after Mother's Day." I told her that it was too long from now and she said I could come stay with her next Thursday night. I really and truly am not going to do anything that night. I am not touching her unless she touches me first. I kind of wish nothing had happened and that nothing changed between us. Our affectionate friendship was perfect before anybody's feelings came to the surface.

I'm sleepy...

5 comments:

RealDeal_Revolutionista said...

So when you come to Chicago this summer, I will go with you to Boystown, Lincoln Park...and a bunch of other North Side neighborhoods to get you a Christina Aguilera, lol. I'll even take you to school with me, because they are seriously all over the place. *nods head, true story.*

But in all seriousness, I think it gets harder to like find people outside of college. Well I should say quality people. We have our share of ghetto girls around here. But E, are these people our age or younger? I ask because at 25, you have no true business having all that damn chaos, drama, and disorganization. TOO MUCH!!

Ya Friend is frontin' and she pissin' me off (lol). What I think is she likes you, doesn't want to deal with what that might mean, and sticks to her boyfriend like glue because it seems safe.But- the way she actin' you can't be her first time with a girl. I doubt it seriously. I repeat, she need to be having a real honest dialogue right about now because she's not fooling anyone...

Except the poor clueless bf...

Erika said...

No, it's definitely not her first time with a female. She's bisexual, been likin both for years. And yeah, some of the women are definitely my age or older. It's not always young broads that's wild. And findin me a Chicago chick sounds like an excellent plan!!

E. said...

lol @ Christina Aguilera.

I was forced to attend one of those Diversity workshops one time too - like you said, COMPLETE waste of time. Everything discussed is so common sense and things that people should've learned in kindergarten - show respect to EVERYONE - case closed! Duh!

it's so funny you wrote about the whole 'white-girl thing' babe and I were just talking about celebrity crushes. I listed all the sistas and then I spent some time thinking about a couple white celebs I would hit in a minute! Scarlett Johansson, Jessica Biel and Charlize Theron are my top 3 right now.

Then you mentioned Lady Gaga and she is SO definitely on my list too. No she's not the most attractive person in the world but there's just something soo crazy and mysteriously sexy about her to me ..like..she seems like she'd be a BEAST in bed.

Ahh...too bad I didn't explore that white girl thing before I settled down.. I think I'll always be a little curious about 'em. I hope you find you one dawg!

KurlyQue said...

Like I keep telling you...you will fine someone. Since I know Friend personally I have to stick up for her. I think she is stickin to him like glue because it's safe but y not? Have you shown her that you are ready to move on number 1? Number 2 she's been dragged through the mood in her past relationships. Plus, you know that she is not going to dump her guy on the spot that has always been there for her for years and get with you. She has way to much heart for that. Give her a chance...you know she is tryin.

breastswildasblkwaves said...

" I really and truly am not going to do anything that night. I am not touching her unless she touches me first." LMAO. Am I the one that finds this statement problematic? Oxymoronic maybe? Haha.

And lol @ the wanting to date a white girl. If all you have are black girls from the hood and your only option is to date a white girl, then yes, you might need to consider changing cities! My first experience with a woman was with a white girl...she was super cute, and we were super high. But it was great.